It’s happening to me and I’m terrified. It has really kicked in starting tonight and of course the coward in me went running to talk to someone.
I was never meant to reach them. I must walk through this alone. It’s very dangerous and I’m too far in to go back. And now the horrible place I was in only yesterday, seems ideal.
In order for a Just punishment to be effective on a liar who talks his way out of everything, it must utterly destroy the word of the liar. I will either come though the other side in Truth or I will receive the punishment for the liars who say one thing and do another. I am throwing my family into poverty and despair. Including the wife who loves me and saved me.
This was once presented to me as a thorny path. I told the Lord that I would choose it.
But I never did. The bill has come due.
May God have Mercy on my soul. And may I have the courage to give it to Him to destroy and
make better.